Wow, ever have that really empty stomach feeling you realize you've been lied to. It's crazy how we tend to trust what our friends say, especially when they lie and tell you that everythings okay, that he doesn't hate you. Seriously, and it's not just once, its ever time that specific frieng brings him up. Which he does all the time thinking that maybe if he talks about him, I'll get over it. What he doesn't seem to realize is that although I would love things to go back to the way they were, I'm actually content with my life, until, or couse, everytime he brings him up and assures you that he doesnt hate. It really is wonderful, how you try to get over someone because of how much of an unreasonable ass they were. Just out of the blue, turn on a fucking dime when everythings is okay adn then assure me that I did nothing wrong after almost three months of ignorning me. Sure I get it, you didnt want to deal with me or whatever the fucking problem was but all you had to do was pick up the phone and tell me straigh up. "hey by the way, I don't want to deal. Later" Would have gotten it at that point. Instead of being a dick about it. I don't know what happened, and I really don't give a shit, because I would never ever want to be with a person like that anyway, cold, hearless, and unwilling to allow people or whatever it is that makes him the way he is. Did I love him? I loved the person he lead me to believe he was, the person who would raise one eyebrow and smile at the camera when I'd take his picture. Do things to make me laugh. Think he was so fucking sneaky, in depth and complicated. But now, I can see right through him.
Congrats Khi, got what you wanted. I so don't care anymore, because my life is perfect and I did it without you. Telling me that I'm missing the bigger picture. I don't care about your bigger picture because you never cared enough about mine.